FYOUSEEKAE.
my still-okay first day of school just got f-ing spoiled by the both of u.
and i was just hoping that it will stay normal.
but no, they just had to spoil damn badly. f-ing badly
early in morning, i waited for you, since you told me too. i din haf to u know? i can easily walk out myself but i waited. though it was already later than the time i usually go out at... it was still YOUR fault that you made me wait, but guess wad? you just scolded me though it wasn't even my f-ing wrong. wth. early in the morning first day of school, you just had to start it like this for me.
THANK YOU SO MUCH.
probably you just LOVE to scold people. maybe cus its ur fault that u made me late but becus you dun wan to look bad so you just frigging find sth to scold me. like people wun forget things huh? im just frigging unlucky to be caught. why am i always so f-ing unlucky that i always kena caught by you? i dun get it, i just dun get it. thank god i still haf my ipod with me, my tvxq, my younha, my KARA. (sorry guys let me own them just for this one post)
i wanted to just let it go and move on, i still haf one whole long day of sch to go. triple science plus math plus ih on the first day. it already sucks. thank god i haf my friends. they are seriously those who really cheer me up. i may not be able to live without them. but i tink i'll just kill myself if i'm without my friends.
thanx hu zhe! me love the poster~! haha you totally made my day! somemore its my fave poster...^^ me love you! oh and i found out that monday was holiday, so that cheered me up too cus can go out! my dear family! me booked all of you kae! for that monday...
the day was still fine, i endured it... until after i reached home, then i realise my modem was missing. at first i tot it was spoiled or sth, i din expect them to do such a childish thing. till i called and asked. then i realise how f-ing farnie it was. how the whole incident was so sucky. and there they go lecturing me again. oh pls, im not the worst. i noe my limits. i wun go online till a fucking 3 or 4 o'clock if i noe i haf to wake up at 5 the nex morning. the most i will go is 12 or the most 2 if i have to rush hm wk or revise stuff. i was still planning today that i will work hard and was proud that i've taken the first step. and they just had to spoil it for me. crush the damn confidence i spent so long to build up in me.
shit it. and the worst i can't curse. i can curse but i can't curse to them. so i'll jus curse and scold myself. i don't want to, i feel guilty too cus i canot deny that i dun love them. i try my best to treasure them i swear. but somehow, they think i'm just some bad kid who dun tink for them at all.
f it. i was so mad i jus threw the phone hard on the wall, din spoil but the ringing music had a wrong tune.
CHILDISH
PLAIN CHILDISH.
i can't believe they are so childish till that extend. till even ME can't believe it. not like they do this i will get stuck to my table and books! i can easily find other stuff to do! like the frigging four sided TV! or even go out wif fwens till late at night then reach home! sometimes i really wonder, do u really understand me?! or you dun even wan to even try to.
forget it man. i've given up long ago. i've drawn the line and thats the furthest i'll go. i'll just TRY and be that good little girl you want me to. i wun do anything im not supposed to. neither will i do more. becus i noe if i go any closer, i'll just hurt myself.
