my 200th post!
but absolutely not a happy one.
terribly emotionally unstable today, i jus can't take it.
the scenery on the fourth floor on top of the right wing is amazing. and yet it got spoiled. i looked over. and turned away.
u'll feel really stupid when u found out in the end wadever effort you put in are all wasted and nothing will come out of it.
you jus feel really stupid and dumb in the end. as in nth ever started or happened in the first place.
i could only use frisbee to calm me down. it was really cool to play with my team mates during break... and my forehand finally improved!!! =DD pearlyn played wif me b4 their trning too and it was a good one, cus i finally can sort of control my throws... stayed bac to watch the trning but they din do much la so wen home after dat
now trying to transfer all my contacts to the new phone zzz it sucks man and i dun really like this phone anyway. sian. nth is really cheering up now. the best thing is probably a nice quiet corner for me to cry my heart out. or a nice empty lake or beach which i stay there forever.
it sucks to be feeling so down. it sucks even more when u end up spreading to ur close fwens. im so glad i haf my three sisters with me, they are like the BEST. NO ONE can ever replace them and i mean it. sarah, really wish u get well soon! dun feel guilty abt us having to help u or anything okae? we are more than willing to do it =DD dun wan u to injure urself again
haix. i wish my brain was like a computer. then i can delete wadever things i wan and nvr remember them ever again. that wld be so much easier. why did i land myself in this kind of shit in the first place?!
maybe keeping off wld make me forget, but its like impossible now?!
